Last year someone
challenged me to think about what word would define my 2014. I chose the word “faith.”
I knew I had huge steps of faith to take and even bigger moments where I had to
trust that God would show up and honor those steps of faith.
I have never been one
for subtlety and literally started off 2014 with a ‘life changing decision’ bang.
The thing about God’s nudging is that often at the time it makes literally zero
sense. I could only cling to the fact that God created my heart, knew it and
was nudging it for an unknown reason.
Sometimes God screams out direction to
people, but 2014 has been a year of gentle nudging for me that would have been
much easier to ignore than to follow.
I spent the summer
clinging to God’s faithfulness as I studied for the Bar Exam. He sent angels in
the form of family and friends. Loved ones prayed over me before I took the Bar
Exam, showed up with food, notes of encouragement and prayed for me on the hour
for those 48 hours that I sat for the Exam. My family sat with me when my exam
kept failing to upload. We just had to trust God who had gotten me this far
would get me through the final push. Miraculously, my exam ended up uploading.
Those months following
the exam, God gave me a lot of peace about the fact that my family and loved
ones had prayed for my exam and if it was His will, I would pass and if not,
then there was a bigger reason. Hearing that I passed the Bar Exam in October,
was just another reminder of God’s faithfulness.
It makes me want to cry
thinking about the ways “faith” have defined my 2014. God has shown up in
bigger ways than I ever thought possible last January and has left me totally filled with awe as I look back at his faithfulness.
“Faith” has been such a
huge theme of my year that it seems God ordained.
Every time I brought a
situation to God and asked for direction, He has guided. Every time I doubted
His provision, He has provided. Every time He moved my heart, He has protected
it. Every time I felt confused, He brought clarity.
Steps of faith are not
necessarily joyous moments.
I spent a lot of 2014 being stretched, broken and
rebuilt all in the name of “faith.” In most respects 2014 would seem like a
really hard year and honestly it was. But “faith” kept me so close to Jesus, grew and
healed my heart in ways that are only possible through God. 2014 showed me that
only Jesus is worthy of faith.
Oh “faith,” you have
been so good to me.
